Your friendly (or not so friendly) thunderchicken here...

My life since I've started raiding hasn't exactly been the happiest each day, but the more I continued to raid with downfall, the more my stress continued to grow in this house hold. But , it wasn't a big deal, I didn't really have work, just clean the house and such. After that all the free time in the world to do w/e I want.

I start to day trade with my grandfather, as he offers me a 50 dollar a day pay, for 7.5~ hours of work. And the first trade we make that is profitable, is mine. Can't go wrong there, minimum 50 dollar's, maximum of no ceiling at all. Eventually I realized it was more of a financial burden to him, then I was giving help wise, so I told him to stop paying me, and just occassionally help me with some things I need.

Eventually he went to Florida, and left me here alone, to do the day trading without him here to watch me, and I admit I did get more sleep than I do now, but I still was doing a better job than he was at it ;p. But when he came back, he told me I was going to do the real deal, trade his account, etc. The first day, was a great day for me, made a couple good trades and was happy. My dad was happy finally, after many months of being mad at me for "not being more helpful, aka not actually bringing money in, from outside the family". The next day he tanks all our profit, because I wasn't trading as much as he wanted, I was "letting money go buy too much" and after a few days of that he stopped trading with us both in the same room. He, I guess, sort of gave up. Because I wasn't meeting his insanely high standards.(Leads to another thing.) The problem is he can't do it right, he falls asleep during trades etc, and I've consistantly had profits. Today (er, well yesterday) I made 525 dollars, based on the absolute smallest account you can have to trade with. But he won't let me trade the real deal because I'm not making 2500 with the same account level, it's rediculous of him to expect it when he can't make anything, he's tanked his account over and over - he just tanked it again today.

And my father keeps pushing me to pick up another job as well, knowing full well I can't quit day trading, without risk of my own well being. But he also expects me to take care of the Dogs, the house, and any other misc task that comes up. He's just asking alot of me, and so as my Grandfather. And I've gotten to the point I guess that I've started expecting a bit more than I should of others, and been an asshole about it at times. With all the shit I'm going through, which includes lack of sleep, I'm pretty consistantly unhappy. This last month I've felt sick more than ever. Like, I mean just plain shitty, or depressed, or unhappy. Coming into raid on a felmyst night was just a dread, because I couldn't do anything more to help us kill the boss. I was doing everything I could to do optimal and it's not enough, I can't mass dispel, and I can't heal everyone at the same time. I try to do as much as I can that my father/grandfather wants me to do that I can possibly do, that wasn't just completely rediculous. The same for raiding, and my arenaing. And in the process I've treated some people rudely and so I'm apologizing for it. As for raiding I have no idea at this point if I'll be raiding in expansion, or play at all for that matter. If everyones really this resentful at me as it seems to be, I don't want to continue making an ass of myself and I know damn well I'm not going to change any time soon.

This kinda didn't quite go as I wanted it to as a post, but long story short, to all the people I've pissed off that haven't told me directly, but told others/etc.... I apologize. I shouldn't take my RL frustrations out on others or into the game.