MAturity in it's entire T
Enixa — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 13:57
So, I've never done a "blog" before but I feel this might be a good way to vent.
For anyone that knows me, I'm an asipring chef with the goals to be a celebrity. I've got the skill, the mind set, and the dedication to make those things happen. But like any human, I have flaws.
I have (in he past and present) been diagnosed with Chronic depression, Anxiety, and Insomia. Weird considering anyone who's ever hung out with me knows I'm a pretty fun guy. I've battled depression, and stopped it in it's tracks. Anxiety and Insomia were tough.
The only thing I ever found useful was, well marijuana. Calms my nerves, relax's me and sometimes (1 out of 50) helps me sleep.
Here's my dilemma, I took a drug est last week for Yosemite National Park and failed. I really wanted to go there, but my habits caught up with me. Just so happens the medical card I DID have expired 6 months ago, and that hurt. MY application was denied, and now I'm looking for a new externship place.
Now, the reason for the Blog Title. When I moved up to Portland, Maturity set in big time. I was on my own, little money, but I made shi work. With a bang and intensity I've never seen myself have. Fucking 3.0 + student (I dropped outta HS), great set of friends that were on or near the RIGHT path. Upon hearing that I wouldn't be going to Yosemite today, something different happened. Instead of doing what I used to be accustomed too, (being pissed off and blaming other people) I talked to my head chef and externship coordinator with the same intensity and excitement I've been bringing to the table over the last 6 months about what todo now.
My chef basically shit his pants when he saw how commited I was, that he is now CALLING places I look into and giving them his full reccomendation for me to become an asset to their team. What The Fuck!
So, the old Turth is gone, the same asshole is still around, but the hardworker is now clear.
HOLLA!
GL Turth!!! best wishes for
Atakheal — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 19:40GL Turth!!! best wishes for you, dont give up!!
GL turth! I know we talked
bluetouguyss — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 16:53GL turth! I know we talked about it on saturday and I was really excited that you were not being negative about the chance you might not get to go to yosemite. You seem like a really great guy and I hope you get everything you want out of this world! Keep that positive attitude and you will be fine!
Grats for your "stick to it
jaibyrd — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 15:17Grats for your "stick to it ness" sounds like your head is screwed on the neck where it should be. Good luck on your other options. I am battling with depression right now. It's a fucking difficult war to win, that's for sure. Was really glad to hear that you came out of it. Gives me hope to hear stuff like that right now, thanks for that.
MJ is really weird. I've
Ewiges — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 15:48MJ is really weird. I've never had depression or anxiety, but I use MJ for my insomnia. Other than that I don't get much out of it. I don't get the "high" people talk about, it just puts me straight to sleep. During highschool when I used to hang out with a bunch of pot heads it always made me get drowsey and tired. And yeah, I won't smoke and drive.
You do realize that marijuana
Shihli — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 15:58You do realize that marijuana is a depressant, one of the (many possible) effects being drowsiness right?
Actually, marijuana is not
Karli — Tue, 07/14/2009 - 17:45Actually, marijuana is not classified as a depressant. It more closely resembles a hallucinogen. It stimulates the respiratory and vascular systems, has pain suppressing properties, and can act as a muscle relaxer. It's actually one of the hardest drugs to classify and fits the mold the least. Just some food for thought =).
The reason people experience the munchies is generally not out of hunger but for the desire/need to respond to heightened senses of the nerves, which tends to hit the mouth area pretty hard.